This morning was completely awesome! We went to church and almost as soon as we walk in we were welcomed by the Holy Spirit. The worship was so very powerful, that it was almost overwhelming at times. I just wanted to run and jump ( which I didn't do, well, at least I didn't run) but the Holy Spirit was moving mightily and to imagine that this is just a taste of what it will be like in heaven, when we get to worship God all the time! I was filled with the Holy Spirit, I wanted to jump out of my skin - lol. Instead of doing that, I talked to one of the Pastors to let him know that confirmed my calling to enter into the prayer ministry! This was a big step for me because for so long God put it on my heart and I was afraid to take that step. I finally finished taking the first step. I have been talking to God about this for a while already. The first time was when very dear friends of mine when to a 6 months prayer school with YWAM. When they talked about it something struck my heart really down to the core. I started to read about it and I was drawn to it. I also had to grapple with things I didn't understand, not that I understand everything now. I thought it too difficult after a while and I didn't want to know more about it, because there were components that would have stretched me and moved me out of my comfort zone. That was not comfortable .... so, I tried to forget about it, thinking that this is not for me. God kept calling me and bringing prayer and intercession back into my life in different ways. I finally couldn't push it away any longer and told God that I was ready to do what He has in store for me as long as He is right there with me. God answered and it has been so very awesome since! God has spoken to my heart in some very intense ways since and brought me people into my life that more mature and knowledgeable in prayer and everything that comes with it. I have had the privilege to learn so much from them and it has been so very amazing! Then I went to a SoZo training - that was just beyond words. There are so many, many things that I don't know and didn't even think about but God keeps challenging and stretching me. Thank you Lord! Today, after coming fresh of off the battlefield, the Lord told me to make myself available for the prayer ministry at church. The enemy has been working overtime to pull me and mine away from the Lord. It was a very hard battle partly because it took me so long to realize that it was a battle - silly me...... I won this long battle through Christ through whom all things are possible. Though this is, I am certain, not the last. The worship this morning was a victory celebration! I can finally move on with my training and made an appointment for a sozo. I am so very excited about that.
Then in the afternoon I was on Facebook and looked at some picture of the retreat my church in Berlin just posted. This was a bittersweet moment and tears just ran down my cheeks when I saw the faces of many wonderful friends in Germany, many people who were instrumental in walk with the Lord and so many more overwhelming memories....and the realization that I will not see most them anymore or at least for a looooong time this side of heaven......
This was a very emotional day ...... thank you God for allowing us to go through emotions, the good, the bad and the ugly. Things change in life on a never stopping basis, sometimes this is good, many times it is painful. There is only one constant - God! Thank you Lord for being the same yesterday, today and tomorrow!
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